I’m a late bloomer (better late than never)

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I’m a late bloomer. For many years I was shut down inside myself, afraid to come out of the shadows… and be me. Some days it can still be a little ify, and I want to run back into the shadows and hide. In many ways, I had to start at the most rudimentary level. 

See Jim feel.
See Jim do something Jim enjoys doing.
See Jim say no.
See Jim express a need or desire.
See Jim have his own thoughts.
See Jim express his authentic self.
See Jim not feel guilty about enjoying life.
See Jim set boundaries.
See Jim tell people off.
See Jim live apart from others expectations.

Phew! It’s not been a walk in the park but I’m getting there.

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  1. texaussie says:

    Tell me about it! I’m 54 years old. Was raised in a Southern Baptist household by a mother with Borderline Personality Disorder and a co-dependent father. In October of 2012, I came back to Texas after living almost 20 years in Australia. I had always intended on returning home one day, and my mother was ill, so I wrapped up my business and returned home to help my father care for her. After four months of ‘trying’, and ALWAYS missing the mark in helping my parents, one night my mother became irritated with me, and spoke to me in a manner in which I have never even heard her address a dog. In that instant, the scales fell from my eyes and I saw my entire life in a nutshell. The abusive relationships, the alcoholism (I’ve been sober for 25 years), the lack of boundaries, the self-doubt, the feeling that I didn’t deserve happiness, etc. etc. and I felt a calmness and peace descend upon me like I never felt before, it was almost like an out-of-body expeience.

    I left my parent’s house that night, after telling my mother that she would never be allowed to treat me in such a manner again. When I asked my father if her treatment of me was ok with him, he just shrugged his shoulders.

    I returned to Australia for 10 months, my 20 year old son staying behind. I went through a dark night of the soul. Your book ‘Wide Open Spaces’ was a god-send. God took me to a place where I could learn to distinguish the Divine Voice from other voices. It was a very difficult time, (won’t bore you with the details), but for the first time in my life I could concentrate on my-SELF. A ‘home church’ group found me that consisted of a Christian radio station DJ, a gay man who had been healed of pancreatic cancer, a very ill woman who smoked lots of dope because it’s the only thing that relieved her pain, and a few other great characters. Our times of discussion, sharing a meal, and talking to God together gave me a whole new experience of what church really is.

    I have returned to Texas, knowing it is for ME, now. I am working on starting my business here, knowing it’s what I love and what I am VERY good at.

    Thank you, Jim. You continue to amaze and support me in my human journey and I am so very grateful.

    Cheers! Rachel

    Sent from my iPad

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